So yesterday I was diagnosed with diabetes. I am going to be writing about this process because I feel like it is good to be open journal about my experience with this disease and I also want to open this door of my life to all of you that may read. I will be posting often what my journey looks like, but as for now here is the story.
Over the past couple of months my body has been doing some interesting things. I have lost about 20 lbs, I get leg and hand cramps, I have been craving sugar (I have been drinking a lot of soda), I have to go to the bathroom alot, my skin was super dry and I got a rash on my body. I knew something wasn’t right but I thought that it might just be because I had gone through 4 cortisone shots on my back and has stopped taking the pain medication. Amy kept pointing out to me that something might be wrong and I started to do some research based on the symptoms that I was experiencing. So after we got back from California, where we were at Brian and Promises Wedding (Amazing by the way!) I decided to go into the doctor to get some blood work done. I was thinking that I might of had a hyperactive thyroid or something. So I went in and they took my blood samples and said that they would call me in a few days.
Yesterday I got a call from the doctor who wanted me to come in immediately to go over the results. I went in and my doctor told me that I have extremely high glucose levels in my blood and that I was most likely a diabetic. We did a blood test on the tester that she gave me and it did not register because it was too high. (It was over 500 – Normal glucose is around 100) She then tested me on her machine and it tested off the chart again. She then got a worried look on her face and recommended that I go to the emergency room to get the levels down. I walked out to my car just feeling really scared – I called Amy and could barely hold back the emotions enough to let her know that I was most likely diabetic and that I needed to go to the emergency room. My sister and brother in law watched our kids as we went to the hospital. (They are the best and I am so appreciative of them!)
So Amy and I went to the emergency room were they hooked me up to an IV and got fluids into my body. They found that I am most likely a type 2 although we are still doing tests to determine for sure. I was in the emergency room for about 4 hours and they released me with my blood sugar level at 313. (Still not great) They prescribed me some medication and sent me home. Today I went back to the doctor and they took more blood to do more tests and they prescribed me a new medication that is better and I am still trying to get my glucose levels down to a normal level. Before I ate dinner tonight it was at 348. It is probably going to take a few days to get it under control.
On a personal level this has been kind of tough on me. I feel like my identity has changed. The past couple of years have been so tough with the two surgeries and 4 cortisone shots on my back. I am feeling a little overwhelmed right now. Today Amy and I had some great talks – I think I am dealing with my self esteem and confidence as a husband and father, feeling somewhat inadequate. I know that it is not true, it’s just where I’m at. I also know that when your blood sugar levels are off you can feel a little down, so I’m not going to listen to my emotions a whole lot. I know that God is in control of my life and I know that he is faithful. I also know that he is not going to give me more than I can handle, but he is defiantly testing that theory! (lol) I know that I am going to be ok – I’m just a little scared and anxious about the future.
The cool thing is that I need to eat healthy. I really do eat healthy already, I just have a few things that I need to change about my diet. Amy and I are really excited about this. We made a menu for the week and went to Sprouts today and got all of the right foods to eat. Our kids are going to be eating really good foods and I am excited for a healthy lifestyle. As I write this my kids are on my lap and have no idea that anything is different with me. They have no idea that their dad has a disease called diabetes. My family and friends are going to love me no matter what and ultimately I am going to be much more plugged into my heath on a daily basis. Maybe what seems like bad thing is really just a big blessing!